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Absolutely beautiful...anyone who's lived a life in the grips of depression can feel these words in every sense of our being. It's been a life long struggle after some events in my youth, but I believe I can finally say with truth and conviction, after 70+ years on this planet that peace has come and I am calm in my heart. Blessings, dear one!

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Oh wow this is so beautiful to read, thank you for sharing that. I hope anybody caught in the grips of it will see your comment. I am grateful to hear you made it through. Much love to you 🙏 ❤️

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And to you as well…❤️

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"I needed that MK Ultra, Stockholm Syndrome,

knife party kaleidoscope,

as a cataclysm to change.

I needed this,

and every other trip to hell beforehand

to break the paralysis

of my

self imposed prison,

where i was CO, inmate and warden."

Sure does seem Life knows best what we need the most. So beautiful it is that you open your heart to it all and run with it - run wild and free and shine with love.

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YES. You hit the nail on the head with Life knowing best what we need the most. I haven't released it yet, but I did an audio recording of the ongoings of last night, and that was a theme that came up. Thank you for sharing that and thank you for reading. God bless 🙏

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MK Ultra Overdose is fire dude.

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I love that you've titled it that. I'm stuck between "walking each other home" and "we do recover" but now that one's in the running too - if not i'll have to write another piece with that title haha

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I thought this was the mk ultra overdose one

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It is - but the title is walking each other home. Mk ultra overdose is just the first line

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Ohh, I had saw the live version titled that way when it came up on my YouTube notifications. My bad.

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"i just feel the sludge of subconscious molasses and

rage I cant explain

each time I awake"

—Holy shit, Tess. You just described how I have felt virtually every morning this month.

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Yooo I am really glad I posted this then 🙏 🙏 Hang in there, that is not an easy place to be. It's a real knife fight out there, as the great Tim Dillon says. ❤️‍🩹

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Some of it is also the lack of sun, methinks. Also sugar. I need to not eat sugar!

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oh lord YES that'll have alot to do with it. I get shithouse wacked if I don't see the sun/have it on my skin and am couped up indoors for too long. You guys can always take a quick trip down to Florida if time allows! Besides intermittent DARPA fog, the weather is lovely 😂 🌹

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We are coming down at some point soon to see my wife’s parents…

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Hey let me know when you do if you guys have extra time!! If not, I can definitely point you in directions of cool stuff depending on what part of FL you are in!

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We end up either north of Gainesville or in Ocala. Where are you?

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Life knows what we need most. Anyone who lived in the hell called addiction, ptsd, stuck in an abusive relationship can relate to this. Thanks for sharing!

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Amen. Thank YOU for sharing. I appreciate you always.

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Sis, you can describe, write all this like no one can, deep emotions and feelings like the crest of waves. You’ve got such a God-given talent. Love you, sending blessings and hugs 💙🙏💫🤗🥰😘

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Thank you so much Joyce. Brings tears to my eyes. I love and miss you lots. I appreciate you so much!!

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Pure awesome...

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Thank you! & Thank you for reading!

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Nice writing. Helps me in pulling out of the cave again. Hibernation is difficult to overcome.

Yet reading this share and it immediately spawned:

Sedaka 62’ish. “They say that waking up is hard to do, come on right in from one world to two, mourning and me we know that it’s true, waking up is hard to do.”

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I fully understand that. I haven't released these audio episodes yet but I will soon. Maybe one tonight. IDK, but they talk about that, how I've felt I've had to force myself out of my isolation or wanting to stay in my bubble, hibernation. Thank you for your commentary and thank you for reading as well. I'm grateful this resonated.

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Whether spoken or written your work always draws me in, that feeling you get when reading a captivating book for the first time.

What a wonderful picture you've included, beautiful scenery and beautiful you.

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Thank you so much Simon. I really appreciate you a lot. God bless you on your day today 🙏

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🙏❤️🌹

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"...resemble nothing of the status quo,

every breath you take is blasphemy to the conveyor belt cult,

funny how the arrows of "stay in your place"

come not from strangers, but

ones you thought would've loved you most"

I resemble that remark.

Muchas gracias.

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Thank you for letting me know, and thank you for taking the time to read these words 🙏 🌹

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