Wow!! Dude, thank you for writing this. May Nate fly in bliss. I honor him because he helped you but then all of us were able to be touched by your many gifts. Mad props to Nate. Thanks for never giving up on yourself, for your heart, and ability to communicate so clearly the life you have lived and how we all can relate it to our individual lives. You are doing a service to humanity never doubt that. I look forward to your new music. I am embracing all the changes I’ve undergone and transmuted and I’m excited about the output process I’m in now. As always, mad respect to you. You rock dude! You’ll have to tell me about this IHOP story someday. I pictured the Christmas song playing at IHOP while you are wielding a knife and I LMAO!😂
🤣🤣🤣 that’s fkng hilarious bc yeah it was that nuts - I will absolutely tell you the full IHOP story 🤣 it’s much more ridiculous when heard in full haha. And thank you for what you said here. I almost didn’t publish this bc it can be hard trying to tell so much of a story, but also try to make it not a massively unreadable long article all over the place. I am very interested to hear how things have been going with you and the process you have been in. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and for saying what you said. I’m grateful to Nate too and grateful that all of us are still choosing to live — it is no easy thing, so likewise, thank you for being present and doing things to help others during such a wild time on planet earth, and for using all that you’ve been through to be of service to others, when the easier thing would have been just to write off life entirely - much respect to you and your journey as well 🙏🙏🙏
When I look back on them I recognize that they were initiations. We were required to go through many. I know I wasn’t aware of it at the time but it’s obvious in retrospect. I think that dark nights of the soul are initiations into deeper realms of compassion.
Yes, indeed. One of several key expressions for me on this plane is to be profoundly present for those experiencing existential despair. To hear them, to communicate with them in a way that makes it obvious that I hear them. It is one of the most healing powerful gifts possible: to hold deep space. Container. Absence of judgment. Total compassion.
Tess, I haven't read it all yet, I started it and felt overwhelming chills up my spine, and a welling of tears ...bless you. Its 4 am, time to go to sleep.
I was so inspired after reading this that I opened a note to answer the question of what makes life worth living. Imagine my surprise when afterwards, I revisited my dusty blog About section to see in large text at the top, “Exploring what truly makes life worth living.” If that’s not a sign to dust it off. Oh my goodness the synchronicity! Thank you for your beautiful story, which has helped guide me back to what’s always been in my heart & soul, even if I forget sometimes. It’s in there. It’s always been in there. ♥️
dude. THANK YOU so much for writing this. This is the shit right here that saves lives (my own included) and makes us realize how connected we all are, and that the shit we went through was never in vain. Yes, you are right, what is in your heart and soul is and always will be there, and it is the best feeling to remember, and to return to that. I am honored beyond words that an experience I shared could have acted as a mirror reflection into your own purpose, strength and divinity. So much love to you dude. Thank you so much for sharing this with me... when I hear things like this... i cant even explain. makes me want to cry, but in a good way.
How often do we let our inner critic... I can't sing... Stop us from realizing and manifesting our gifts? Thank you Tesstamona for sharing a profound truth... TRY.
Thank you for reading and thank you for doing the same - I am grateful for this platform where we all see how much we actually really do have in common 🙏
Some of us do have so much in common yes, and so many others are joining us now that they are awakening to the truth about this world. It's always a pleasure to read your work, as I can relate in more ways than one. Thank you for being an honest, sincere and authentic person. It takes more courage than most people are willing to acknowledge 🙏💜🙏
Your self honesty is so refreshing. Also, much respect for not falling for the mandates and escaping L.A. Sometimes it feels as if we are outnumbered (because we are) but all it takes is a little flame to make a light in the dark. A little flame can be seen from very far away in dark places.
Tears… thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful and kind soul who brings alot of light to this world. Happy for you and keep singing and sharing your songs
Congrats Tess! Glad you made it! It's been 25 years since I've quit. I have seen 1 fellow friend since then who made it. 2 still in today and all others passed away. Really grateful you found your way! 🍀🍀🍀🍀
Wow!! Dude, thank you for writing this. May Nate fly in bliss. I honor him because he helped you but then all of us were able to be touched by your many gifts. Mad props to Nate. Thanks for never giving up on yourself, for your heart, and ability to communicate so clearly the life you have lived and how we all can relate it to our individual lives. You are doing a service to humanity never doubt that. I look forward to your new music. I am embracing all the changes I’ve undergone and transmuted and I’m excited about the output process I’m in now. As always, mad respect to you. You rock dude! You’ll have to tell me about this IHOP story someday. I pictured the Christmas song playing at IHOP while you are wielding a knife and I LMAO!😂
🤣🤣🤣 that’s fkng hilarious bc yeah it was that nuts - I will absolutely tell you the full IHOP story 🤣 it’s much more ridiculous when heard in full haha. And thank you for what you said here. I almost didn’t publish this bc it can be hard trying to tell so much of a story, but also try to make it not a massively unreadable long article all over the place. I am very interested to hear how things have been going with you and the process you have been in. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and for saying what you said. I’m grateful to Nate too and grateful that all of us are still choosing to live — it is no easy thing, so likewise, thank you for being present and doing things to help others during such a wild time on planet earth, and for using all that you’ve been through to be of service to others, when the easier thing would have been just to write off life entirely - much respect to you and your journey as well 🙏🙏🙏
Tess, you are sooooo beautiful, and I’m not talking about your physical self.
We’ve spent more time in existential HELL than most people still breathing, and we’re better humans for it.
I feeeeel you. I seeeee you. I adooooore you!
🌞
😭😭 thank you and likewise!! It is a testament to the magic of our spirits when we go through these things, and become better for it not worse 🙏
When I look back on them I recognize that they were initiations. We were required to go through many. I know I wasn’t aware of it at the time but it’s obvious in retrospect. I think that dark nights of the soul are initiations into deeper realms of compassion.
Yes, indeed. One of several key expressions for me on this plane is to be profoundly present for those experiencing existential despair. To hear them, to communicate with them in a way that makes it obvious that I hear them. It is one of the most healing powerful gifts possible: to hold deep space. Container. Absence of judgment. Total compassion.
You and I are healers for the hopeless 🙏❤️
Tears, of awe and happiness that you’ve reached where you are now… Sing, and let us hear those songs. You rock! Love and blessings 💙🙏💫
Thank you Joyce! Thank you for your kindness and your beautiful poetry you share with the world ❤️
Tess, I haven't read it all yet, I started it and felt overwhelming chills up my spine, and a welling of tears ...bless you. Its 4 am, time to go to sleep.
😭🙏 I hope you got good rest! I was up until about it 4 am too 😵💫 I appreciate you very much!
I've not been able to sleep for more than four hours a night for the last week. The energy is off the charts, for us sensitives 🙏💜🙏
Tess, I just got your Bandcamp 20. : )
Thanks for sharing. This is a very inspiring story. 🤗
Thank you for reading, it means a lot 🙏🙏🙏
I was so inspired after reading this that I opened a note to answer the question of what makes life worth living. Imagine my surprise when afterwards, I revisited my dusty blog About section to see in large text at the top, “Exploring what truly makes life worth living.” If that’s not a sign to dust it off. Oh my goodness the synchronicity! Thank you for your beautiful story, which has helped guide me back to what’s always been in my heart & soul, even if I forget sometimes. It’s in there. It’s always been in there. ♥️
dude. THANK YOU so much for writing this. This is the shit right here that saves lives (my own included) and makes us realize how connected we all are, and that the shit we went through was never in vain. Yes, you are right, what is in your heart and soul is and always will be there, and it is the best feeling to remember, and to return to that. I am honored beyond words that an experience I shared could have acted as a mirror reflection into your own purpose, strength and divinity. So much love to you dude. Thank you so much for sharing this with me... when I hear things like this... i cant even explain. makes me want to cry, but in a good way.
How often do we let our inner critic... I can't sing... Stop us from realizing and manifesting our gifts? Thank you Tesstamona for sharing a profound truth... TRY.
😭 thats what jai dev always fkng says. he'll say "just TRY. T-R-Y." i dont know why that makes me so emotoinal but thank you and i love you
Sending you so much love, my musical sister! XO
Likewise!! Proud of you!!!!
Rock On!
Thank you!
Thank YOU!!!! 🙏
Thank you for your inspirational story on breaking your glass ceiling 😎💥
Thank you for reading and thank you for doing the same - I am grateful for this platform where we all see how much we actually really do have in common 🙏
Some of us do have so much in common yes, and so many others are joining us now that they are awakening to the truth about this world. It's always a pleasure to read your work, as I can relate in more ways than one. Thank you for being an honest, sincere and authentic person. It takes more courage than most people are willing to acknowledge 🙏💜🙏
“blank check from the universe”. Love that.
Your self honesty is so refreshing. Also, much respect for not falling for the mandates and escaping L.A. Sometimes it feels as if we are outnumbered (because we are) but all it takes is a little flame to make a light in the dark. A little flame can be seen from very far away in dark places.
LIKE x 100 🙏🌞
❤️👻
https://youtu.be/Q4lldFrUUvg?si=1XPrlOdPckjd3km1
Nice 😁
That whole album is amazing. Planning to use it for my Freedom Music Friday post this week
Tears… thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful and kind soul who brings alot of light to this world. Happy for you and keep singing and sharing your songs
Thank you for sharing this part of your story. What a testament of truth courage and inspiration. Blessings. ❤️🙏🏼🎼🎤
Congrats Tess! Glad you made it! It's been 25 years since I've quit. I have seen 1 fellow friend since then who made it. 2 still in today and all others passed away. Really grateful you found your way! 🍀🍀🍀🍀