I know how hard this is to live through, and how hard it is to talk about and to watch and not to be able to do anything about the choices others have made, and it breaks my heart that you have had to go through this much death so young too.
Sending my love, @Tesstamona. So proud of you and the way that you’re honoring yourself, and your fight, and the memories of the loved ones you’ve lost. This is great work. 🔥💫
"Fuck everyone who cries about a war halfway across the world but steps over the bodies of the sick and dying in their own backyards, and in many cases, under their own roofs."
This gets to me the most and proves beyond doubt their sentiments are fake, it's about having your virtue made visible for all to swoon.
These deaths go by quietly like a dirty little secret, people choose to condemn them because then no further action is required.
oh wow i love what you said here, "its about having your virtue made visible for all to swoon" that is on point AF. yes, very strange when human emotions have somehow been weaponized to become a drug ?? its like mfs are out here chasing the dopamine hits of conformity and the cortisol of hysteria as opposed to being in touch with their humanity. God forbid. LUCKILY there are many people who are not hypnotized by this spell, including you. Thank you.
I was slightly hesitant to share the link as “spreading news that pisses people off” isn’t my jam or desire!! But awareness and knowledge is power. And I know you have the tools to rise above and shine regardless, my warrior sister. 🌟
Just an FYI, I’ve been watching Soft White Underbelly interviews with addicts over the past year. Their stories, when allowed to be told, are so incredibly humanizing. Learning about the pain and trauma that led each of them to their addiction of choice is so eye and heart-opening.
I have so much compassion for them, for us ALL, and a desire to break the cycles to bring about the CURE for once and for all.
yes it is true, the truth must be shown. plus i can think of a lot of other things that would make people much angrier haha. this is just facts. but then again people have opinions about those these days too. OMGGG I am glad youre watching SFU. One of my friends was interviewed by him last year. It's done very well tbh... to just let someone be seen without the filter of the interviewer, he does a really good job at staying out of the way if that makes sense. big love to you.
“to just let someone be seen without the filter of the interviewer”
Yes!! This is what I love about his format. It’s so raw and intimate and personal. And I love how each person’s story humanizes them to the point that any judgement the viewer may have held is slowly transformed into love and compassion. It’s a very powerful reminder that each human has a journey and it’s not ours to judge. Crazy you know someone he interviewed. Sending you love! ❤️
SFU does a great job at looking at this. I have the pleasure of working with someone who likes to make backbacks for homeless people and hand them out. I need to do another round of that. It's just too hard on people out there. Especially, now, while it's cold. May everyone have another chance and a place to rest and food to eat and a reason to have hope.
I’m sure you know of Dr. Gabor Maté - compassionate physician working in rehab in British Columbia, Canada. His book ‘In the realm of hungry ghosts’ details the early life origins of the pain that people turning to substances are often trying to alleviate. ❤️
Yes I do. He’s very on point with it as that’s been my experience and the experience of those I know. As years go on it takes a life of its own but yeah, trauma is at the root of all of it.
I wish I could "like" this comment a thousand times. CORRECT. I know this is an unpopular opinion but I'd argue fucking all of them being that they're all petroleum based byproducts and who knows what the FUCK is in most of them. and yes of course we're all aware the "VAX" is genocide which is why most of us aren't allowed to talk anywhere on the internet except here cuz we've been screaming it for years. but yeah i'd argue the entire healthcare system is long-game culling and population control at best. Nefarious mind control and torture and sorcery at worst (when dealing with things like psych meds especially.)
My former managing director once remarked that for many it’s easier to send a donation to some organisation far away than to look after, say, your neighbour or the poorly person down the road.
I've lost so many dear ones to addiction over the past 40 or more years. Not just fentanyl - crack, alcohol, heroin, suicide because of addiction. It's heartbreaking. Blessings to you Tesstamona. 💞
uhggg i am so sorry. i know what that is like. esp the suicide and homicide aspect of addiction as well, that is very real. alcohol is especially vicious and often overlooked the most because its legal and so much of our culture revolves around it. prayers and blessings to you too. its hard to be the survivor of those things when ppl youve loved most are gone. i suppose all we can do is make the fact that we're still here count for something -- and i know you are doing that as are all the other writers ive come across here are.
Thank you, Tesstamona. I had to really steel myself for a long time, and keep positive as well. It's a hard combo to master sometimes but I managed to keep my heart open and that is so important. I believe it is really important to make an effort to lift people up while we are lifting ourselves up.
I have talked to my son's about this but I am going to do it again. Man, oh live. I didn't realize HOW prevalent the fentanyl is. That's scary. I agree with taking care of each other, as we come to know each other in community and in close proximity. If we all help more where we are that will be the compounding factor that actually makes a change. And I wish you hadn't lost so many so soon.
many blessings to you, i can't imagine how ... i dont know the word.. how "intense" it would be to raise a child in the world as it is right now, as death seems to hide behind every corner. but with parents like you, thats the biggest asset someone can have. i do notice a BIG difference in how someone "turns out" based on whether or not they had parents who actually love them and made an effort to raise them honestly vesus the people who had absent or abusive parents, its like night and day. infinite blessings to you for being someone who is aware and also loving. very much needed rn.
That's partly how I came up with "I am here for IT, whatever it is." It's terrifying, but you just decide that whatever happens in your timeline, for some reason, you are here for that. It's easy for me, compared to some people. There's always a worse story to put that idea to the test. I really feel worse for people having small children right now. It's a terrible time for so many health reasons that we bring on ourselves. I feel a lot of compassion for people with small children. It's so weird anymore, everything is in play or in limbo. Everything is in a state of rapid change and a lot of people are not adjusting well. It feels like nothing is solid with regard to grades 1- 12 aged individuals. At least by adulthood, even though it's still terrifying, you relent. You know that they are here for it, whatever it is. No matter what you try to do , you cannot control it. So you might as well relax with what you have. No one is hanging off a cliff? Excellent. It's a good day :) Of course I always remind them of this or that with regard to their safety and when I can't change their mind from going fishing in the middle of the ocean or something, I just imagine a wonderful day for them and put them in a bubble in my imagination. It's pink love with a see through layer over that. The see through layer is filled with discernment and protection and possibly hiding them from view of harm. The pink is love. Also, sometimes I imagine green ,for healing. I believe I saw a post or a note like that from YOU :) Haha. That's how I cope. ...so much compassion for others though. So, so much. I like the feeling I get when I decide that I knew life would be this hard and decided to be here anyway. It helps me navigate. I think "future me - (because linear time is utter bs....not the overriding fact about time/space) .....already knows what will happen. It has already happened. Future me is looking back on me right now". I think of time as layers, sort of. Kind of hither dee tither (hahaha - old people phrase or made up southern thing? Very technical.) It helps to feel like I already know and then try to bring the best into it with my energy and my thoughts. It's the best I can do.
I find your self-belief very inspiring. Irrespective of what the government decides to do or not, we all have our roles to play. Some somethings are only dependent on us. It is our responsibility to do what we can do, no matter how little.
Whatever you decide to do, you'd need a clear head to get it right. This is why I started a newsletter that's focused on what we can do to improve our mental health and stay sane in this crazy world.
Thank you for sharing that. And yes I agree. This is why I have the yogic practice that I do, among other things. Highly encourage everyone to follow whatever path gets them closer to their soul and away from all that isn't.
Look bro your dealing with a demonic government that put plague n blankets and sent them to Indians n shipped heroin back to America n dead soldiers body bags they don't give a fuk who drops dead that's their agenda now their doin it with COVID n it's "vaccine" now X is rollin n.......what a country
did you just call me bro or are you referring to Jelly Roll? I think I was pretty clear in the article that going to politicians is going to get you absolutely nowhere and they dont give a fuck. I shared it for the message, because most people dont give a fuck unless the TV and celebrities tell them to. I also included solutions of what we the people can do. Comments like this make ZERO sense, we already know all that shit.
ah my bad, im used to weird comments on the interwebs. but yes I do understand where you're coming from because that's my reaction to talking to politicians as well, useless at best. but the message is vital nevertheless.. politicians wont do shit but if enough of us start to care and coordinate we can ❤️ 🙏
There's a few things i've seen going on in Germany, mostly what ive seen is with the farmers, is the fent really really bad there too!? i fully support dumping needles and fent on the white house lawn... maybe at the CIA's headquarters in langley VA too.. and at the homes of everyone who wrks for the pharmaceutical company Jansenn.. and every politican who has taken bribes and helped traffic this shit in one way or another. Names and addresses. 🔥
This guy still drinks and smokes weed who is he to talk about addiction? I know the guys heart is in the right place , but dude get your own act cleaned up before you talk about the problems with addiction. I hate to be a hater Jelly Roll get clean and lead by example, that's what a real man does.
I understand what you’re saying for sure. However the overall point of sharing this was for the fentanyl crisis to be talked about in general, because this is war, and nobody talks about it - at least not on national tv. And unfortunately, people only care when celebrities or whoever else they idolize tells them to. With the amount of people that I’ve lost and watched die around me and I’m sure you understand yourself, anything is better than nothing. we definitely need more voices of people who are testaments that you can kick everything- but we also need the normies to start giving a shit about their fellows who are dying by the hundreds of thousands every year.
Right in the gut, love.
I know how hard this is to live through, and how hard it is to talk about and to watch and not to be able to do anything about the choices others have made, and it breaks my heart that you have had to go through this much death so young too.
Sending my love, @Tesstamona. So proud of you and the way that you’re honoring yourself, and your fight, and the memories of the loved ones you’ve lost. This is great work. 🔥💫
"Fuck everyone who cries about a war halfway across the world but steps over the bodies of the sick and dying in their own backyards, and in many cases, under their own roofs."
This gets to me the most and proves beyond doubt their sentiments are fake, it's about having your virtue made visible for all to swoon.
These deaths go by quietly like a dirty little secret, people choose to condemn them because then no further action is required.
Very good read.
oh wow i love what you said here, "its about having your virtue made visible for all to swoon" that is on point AF. yes, very strange when human emotions have somehow been weaponized to become a drug ?? its like mfs are out here chasing the dopamine hits of conformity and the cortisol of hysteria as opposed to being in touch with their humanity. God forbid. LUCKILY there are many people who are not hypnotized by this spell, including you. Thank you.
I see your point. Charity begins at home
You got that right!
It’s all done by design to keep people down and disconnected. Easier to control.
In fact I just read about this yesterday, happening here in Canada. Shocking but not surprising.
We are resilient, and connection and compassion is the CURE.
Thank you for being a shining example of what’s possible for everyone, Tess! ❤️
https://open.substack.com/pub/thecanadianindependent/p/bc-government-quietly-approving-free?r=n516p&utm_medium=ios&utm_campaign=post
Thank you so much for this and for sharing that I’m gonna peep it when I get to work. 🙏🙏❤️❤️
I was slightly hesitant to share the link as “spreading news that pisses people off” isn’t my jam or desire!! But awareness and knowledge is power. And I know you have the tools to rise above and shine regardless, my warrior sister. 🌟
Just an FYI, I’ve been watching Soft White Underbelly interviews with addicts over the past year. Their stories, when allowed to be told, are so incredibly humanizing. Learning about the pain and trauma that led each of them to their addiction of choice is so eye and heart-opening.
I have so much compassion for them, for us ALL, and a desire to break the cycles to bring about the CURE for once and for all.
Sending you mass respect and love, sister! ❤️
yes it is true, the truth must be shown. plus i can think of a lot of other things that would make people much angrier haha. this is just facts. but then again people have opinions about those these days too. OMGGG I am glad youre watching SFU. One of my friends was interviewed by him last year. It's done very well tbh... to just let someone be seen without the filter of the interviewer, he does a really good job at staying out of the way if that makes sense. big love to you.
“to just let someone be seen without the filter of the interviewer”
Yes!! This is what I love about his format. It’s so raw and intimate and personal. And I love how each person’s story humanizes them to the point that any judgement the viewer may have held is slowly transformed into love and compassion. It’s a very powerful reminder that each human has a journey and it’s not ours to judge. Crazy you know someone he interviewed. Sending you love! ❤️
SFU does a great job at looking at this. I have the pleasure of working with someone who likes to make backbacks for homeless people and hand them out. I need to do another round of that. It's just too hard on people out there. Especially, now, while it's cold. May everyone have another chance and a place to rest and food to eat and a reason to have hope.
That’s beautiful. ❤️
I’m sure you know of Dr. Gabor Maté - compassionate physician working in rehab in British Columbia, Canada. His book ‘In the realm of hungry ghosts’ details the early life origins of the pain that people turning to substances are often trying to alleviate. ❤️
Yes I do. He’s very on point with it as that’s been my experience and the experience of those I know. As years go on it takes a life of its own but yeah, trauma is at the root of all of it.
We have the power to change our lives for the better
Indeed, we do
And that's not the only big pharma drug doing murder to humans.
I wish I could "like" this comment a thousand times. CORRECT. I know this is an unpopular opinion but I'd argue fucking all of them being that they're all petroleum based byproducts and who knows what the FUCK is in most of them. and yes of course we're all aware the "VAX" is genocide which is why most of us aren't allowed to talk anywhere on the internet except here cuz we've been screaming it for years. but yeah i'd argue the entire healthcare system is long-game culling and population control at best. Nefarious mind control and torture and sorcery at worst (when dealing with things like psych meds especially.)
Absolutely Every Word.
My former managing director once remarked that for many it’s easier to send a donation to some organisation far away than to look after, say, your neighbour or the poorly person down the road.
Sadly, he’s still right.
YES. This. 🙏
Wow, very powerful speech by that Jelly Roll guy.
I've lost so many dear ones to addiction over the past 40 or more years. Not just fentanyl - crack, alcohol, heroin, suicide because of addiction. It's heartbreaking. Blessings to you Tesstamona. 💞
uhggg i am so sorry. i know what that is like. esp the suicide and homicide aspect of addiction as well, that is very real. alcohol is especially vicious and often overlooked the most because its legal and so much of our culture revolves around it. prayers and blessings to you too. its hard to be the survivor of those things when ppl youve loved most are gone. i suppose all we can do is make the fact that we're still here count for something -- and i know you are doing that as are all the other writers ive come across here are.
Thank you, Tesstamona. I had to really steel myself for a long time, and keep positive as well. It's a hard combo to master sometimes but I managed to keep my heart open and that is so important. I believe it is really important to make an effort to lift people up while we are lifting ourselves up.
I have talked to my son's about this but I am going to do it again. Man, oh live. I didn't realize HOW prevalent the fentanyl is. That's scary. I agree with taking care of each other, as we come to know each other in community and in close proximity. If we all help more where we are that will be the compounding factor that actually makes a change. And I wish you hadn't lost so many so soon.
many blessings to you, i can't imagine how ... i dont know the word.. how "intense" it would be to raise a child in the world as it is right now, as death seems to hide behind every corner. but with parents like you, thats the biggest asset someone can have. i do notice a BIG difference in how someone "turns out" based on whether or not they had parents who actually love them and made an effort to raise them honestly vesus the people who had absent or abusive parents, its like night and day. infinite blessings to you for being someone who is aware and also loving. very much needed rn.
That's partly how I came up with "I am here for IT, whatever it is." It's terrifying, but you just decide that whatever happens in your timeline, for some reason, you are here for that. It's easy for me, compared to some people. There's always a worse story to put that idea to the test. I really feel worse for people having small children right now. It's a terrible time for so many health reasons that we bring on ourselves. I feel a lot of compassion for people with small children. It's so weird anymore, everything is in play or in limbo. Everything is in a state of rapid change and a lot of people are not adjusting well. It feels like nothing is solid with regard to grades 1- 12 aged individuals. At least by adulthood, even though it's still terrifying, you relent. You know that they are here for it, whatever it is. No matter what you try to do , you cannot control it. So you might as well relax with what you have. No one is hanging off a cliff? Excellent. It's a good day :) Of course I always remind them of this or that with regard to their safety and when I can't change their mind from going fishing in the middle of the ocean or something, I just imagine a wonderful day for them and put them in a bubble in my imagination. It's pink love with a see through layer over that. The see through layer is filled with discernment and protection and possibly hiding them from view of harm. The pink is love. Also, sometimes I imagine green ,for healing. I believe I saw a post or a note like that from YOU :) Haha. That's how I cope. ...so much compassion for others though. So, so much. I like the feeling I get when I decide that I knew life would be this hard and decided to be here anyway. It helps me navigate. I think "future me - (because linear time is utter bs....not the overriding fact about time/space) .....already knows what will happen. It has already happened. Future me is looking back on me right now". I think of time as layers, sort of. Kind of hither dee tither (hahaha - old people phrase or made up southern thing? Very technical.) It helps to feel like I already know and then try to bring the best into it with my energy and my thoughts. It's the best I can do.
hither t tither? Haha. These are not a phrase. Normal people say Hither and tither, according to Google. I am A B normal.
I find your self-belief very inspiring. Irrespective of what the government decides to do or not, we all have our roles to play. Some somethings are only dependent on us. It is our responsibility to do what we can do, no matter how little.
Whatever you decide to do, you'd need a clear head to get it right. This is why I started a newsletter that's focused on what we can do to improve our mental health and stay sane in this crazy world.
Here is my newsletter.
https://purplemessenger.substack.com/
Thank you for sharing that. And yes I agree. This is why I have the yogic practice that I do, among other things. Highly encourage everyone to follow whatever path gets them closer to their soul and away from all that isn't.
💯and thank you for saying it.
Look bro your dealing with a demonic government that put plague n blankets and sent them to Indians n shipped heroin back to America n dead soldiers body bags they don't give a fuk who drops dead that's their agenda now their doin it with COVID n it's "vaccine" now X is rollin n.......what a country
did you just call me bro or are you referring to Jelly Roll? I think I was pretty clear in the article that going to politicians is going to get you absolutely nowhere and they dont give a fuck. I shared it for the message, because most people dont give a fuck unless the TV and celebrities tell them to. I also included solutions of what we the people can do. Comments like this make ZERO sense, we already know all that shit.
Sorry mam but I was referring to the roll
ah my bad, im used to weird comments on the interwebs. but yes I do understand where you're coming from because that's my reaction to talking to politicians as well, useless at best. but the message is vital nevertheless.. politicians wont do shit but if enough of us start to care and coordinate we can ❤️ 🙏
I'm not good at emails I'm 64 n computer stupid but I'm praying you succeed on substack n in everything you put your hands to my friend
GOD bless
Matthew 25-40
All good my friend you c what's happening in Germany don't you we may have to dump a load of needles and fentanyl on the white house lawn
There's a few things i've seen going on in Germany, mostly what ive seen is with the farmers, is the fent really really bad there too!? i fully support dumping needles and fent on the white house lawn... maybe at the CIA's headquarters in langley VA too.. and at the homes of everyone who wrks for the pharmaceutical company Jansenn.. and every politican who has taken bribes and helped traffic this shit in one way or another. Names and addresses. 🔥
This guy still drinks and smokes weed who is he to talk about addiction? I know the guys heart is in the right place , but dude get your own act cleaned up before you talk about the problems with addiction. I hate to be a hater Jelly Roll get clean and lead by example, that's what a real man does.
I understand what you’re saying for sure. However the overall point of sharing this was for the fentanyl crisis to be talked about in general, because this is war, and nobody talks about it - at least not on national tv. And unfortunately, people only care when celebrities or whoever else they idolize tells them to. With the amount of people that I’ve lost and watched die around me and I’m sure you understand yourself, anything is better than nothing. we definitely need more voices of people who are testaments that you can kick everything- but we also need the normies to start giving a shit about their fellows who are dying by the hundreds of thousands every year.
Well written. Keep pushing. Also, let’s not forget the generational trauma that tips people over. Keep moving and leave the past to the dust.