"MD Does Not Stand For Medical Deity" - Medicine As Industry, Murder, AI and a Closer Look:

I got half the nerve...

I got half the nerve, y’all.

EDIT:

I started writing this a few days ago. I’m struggling with chronic health issues including immense amounts of physical pain. It’s not something I’ve discussed with you all before.

I hope this article makes sense, as it’s a bit of a struggle to think clearly and maintain focus at the moment.

The reason for finishing this article today and updating to add the recent development of the murder of the CEO of UnitedHealthCare is this:

People are tired of being treated like fractured machinery on a conveyor belt and exploited at their most vulnerable — left to die in the stinging hypocrisy of “the land of the free, the greatest nation on earth”.

Is this the true American way?

Surely, it has been. Cult of Silence, as we’ve discussed before. Surely we’ve touched on it in Programmed House-Cattle as well.

However, I think the tides may be shifting.

As most of my articles, we will be weaving in and out between subjects.

We’ll be weaving between the prose I wrote a few days ago of personal experience, and stepping back to look at the macro.

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Let us take a closer look

A disclaimer before we begin:

People are fed up with these failing human systems. Please, take heed in this frustration. I am already seeing the following happen:

People welcoming the automation of government and military operations by Artificial Intelligence— on the basis that their fellow man has failed them so gravely.

What do you think DOGE is for? Dept. of Gov’t Efficiency? What’s “efficient” from a business mindset? What’s the largest overhead cost to run anything?

LABOR.

Get rid of people, install the machines, automation (AI) surely must be efficient… unless it fucks up colossally and also has its own consciousness and decision-making abilities…

Checkmate.

Please see the numerous documented scenarios where this was a complete disaster, and there’s really no way of preventing this.

I’ll link TWO. There are many more.

1. U.S. Air Force AI Drone Simulation (2023) - AI Drones disobey orders and attack the operator, using its own intelligence to determine that the humans "commanding” it were a threat to the mission itself. Machine thought it could do it better. EFFICIENCY.

   Source: https://www.theregister.com/2023/06/02/ai_drone_simulation/?td=readmore

2. Facebook Chat Bots (AI) were yeeted because instead of working together under supervision of their human programmers, they developed their OWN LANGUAGE that humans couldn’t understand and went rogue. This was in 2017.

   It’s also not the only time it’s happened, apparently it happened with the AI at google and also OpenAI. You can look it up anywhere but here’s a source:

   https://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/facebook-artificial-intelligence-ai-chatbot-new-language-research-openai-google-a7869706.html

Do NOT allow the failings of man to be the reason why you surrender your lives to AI. This is suicide.

It’s time for us as human beings to grow, not do more of the same (lazy outsourcing of our responsibilities) to a technology far too advanced for the level of consciousness all of us are at.

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If you want to learn more, start with the following topics:

• Optogenetics

• DARPA (Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency - part of the US Department of Defense) formerly known as ARPA.

• ARPANET (1969) Precursor to the modern internet by the Advanced Research Projects Agency (ARPA is now known as DARPA).

• The world wide web was developed at CERN in case you didn’t know, after the ARPANET had it’s go of… testing for about 21 years.

• CIA Project LifeLog (DARPA project) Now known as Facebook ;-)

• Silent Weapons for Quiet Wars - I’d suggest finding the pdf on archive dot org or finding a printable physical copy.

• Any WEF (World Economic Forum) video (go to their YouTube or website) on AI governments.

• Smart cities (if you’re a Trump fan, he uses the term Freedom Cities, you’ll also hear “Resilience Cities” or 15-minute cities, they’re all the same open-air surveillance prisons).

• The near-infrared street lights in smart cities (which are installed now)

• CBDCs, Digital IDs, the list goes on.

• If you want to get esoteric about it, look into the Ahrimanic Prophecy and Rudolf Steiner’s work on the matter.

• If you’d like resources, please leave comments or message me. I will reply to people as I am able.

• If you like a little groove to your news, you can watch my music video Algorithm Ghetto. I lay most of this out in about 4 minutes, complete with visual storytelling and snazzy guitar riffs.

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Returning to the prose, the MD is not Medical Deity prompt-

I got half the nerve to go learn medicine myself.

I use a stream of consciousness prose to vent my rage as I sit in the inflamed cage that has become my muscular-skeletal structure

I scream for help and fight for answers as I am met with the void of silence or resistance, from the very people who took an oath to do the opposite.

I got half the nerve, y’all.

I got half the nerve to learn functional medicine and start my own holistic healing center where everybody is seen AS THEY ARE.

The whole human.

How dare we fragment ourselves like this, slapping The Creator in the face as we pull apart the majesty that is Life and drain it of all reverence.

“I always feel foggy, somatic detachment, it’s like my body isn’t connected to actions, it destroys everything that’s affected to fragments, I don’t have nothing but senses and sadness..” - Vinny Paz, “Is Happiness Just A Word?”

This song came on as I was writing this and I started crying. He wrote that song 11 years ago about the brokenness of the psychiatric / mental health “SYSTEM”.

He is correct.

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A new method of approaching health holistically:

What would it look like?

A treatment plan designed and executed with an inter-disciplinary team of clinicians and providers, all running parallel, actually giving a shit about the person—

As opposed to being in “insurance code hawk eye mode”,

Where you only strike what you perceive as a nail with a (rather rusty and resentful) hammer, any time a SYMPTOM arises with enough severity, that you can find a decent billing code for it, therefore, a justification to “treat”.

Insurance companies have fucked everything.

I’d ask what happened to freedom of thought and the adventurous spirit that makes us wonder, how to heal better, and where exactly do these dis-orders, dis-eases, and illnesses come from? What is their root cause?

As opposed to, here, take this pill (best case scenario), it’ll help delay the inevitable.

The doctor did not like me because of my insurance company. It made him reluctant to even submit the necessary testing I needed because he didn’t want to deal with THEM.

That is NOT how this is supposed to work.

I offered to pay out of pocket. Desperate. I didn’t care, I just need the pain to stop. I have the money. I have it saved. I can pay.

This seemed laughable to him.

How could a young woman have MONEY? How could a young woman on THAT type of insurance have money? HA.

And the diagnostic radar they are programmed with… what a nuisance you are… unless you match a certain BILLING CODE to justify their time.

He looked at me and said, “Wow, you’re looking at having to get new insurance too. So you REALLY don’t need an autoimmune disease diagnosis right now, do you?”

What am I supposed to say to that?

Hey, you’re totally right, don’t treat me or figure out what is going on with my body so I can HOPEFULLY find alternative health insurance. Maybe we can wait until I die to figure things out.

The reality is, I already have pre-existing conditions.

Getting new insurance is going to be robbery in the 1st degree no matter what. What is one more diagnosis if it is indeed accurate, and makes this long-running nightmare finally stop?
Just send the orders for the imaging, send the orders for yet another panel of bloodwork, figure it the fuck out.

And if you don’t, I’ll take the results myself, consult with whom I choose, and I WILL.

Turns out, that’s exactly what I’m doing. Which is beyond exhausting. But what other choice do you have? The fucking audacity to have doctors act as literal gatekeepers to your own health. As if you need to comply with whatever MOOD they’re in that day in order to be worthy of relief from your pain. Holy shit there’s a special place in hell.

Just get it done. Use your license to make the other people in this assembly line do their job.

Thanks.

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Are we confused as to why people have NO MERCY for the CEO of an insurance company who was neck-deep in lawsuits for using AI to deny insurance claims to the elderly, while they had full knowledge that this AI system was WRONG at a staggering rate of 90 percent?

Look, I do NOT advocate for the savagery of “let’s kill our enemies” — but I am not surprised by it either. You can only push people for so long until they snap.

Also, I don’t know the actual motive for this killing. That is what is easiest to assume, but who knows who did it and why. This is the easiest reason to come up with, which says a lot about the state of our “healthcare” system - and our country.

To the people freaking out thinking we’re headed toward fascism, you need a dictionary. We’re already there and have BEEN there since… well I can’t think of a time we haven’t been. Private interests run EVERYTHING.

I do not advocate for vengeance or ANY form of celebration of death because I think the lack of reverence for human life and lack of empathy is incredibly concerning. This is a very dark road to be going down. It makes me physically sick.

And yes, I realize people like CEO’s of insurance companies (and if we’re being honest, MOST human beings today) have a massive lack of reverence for human life. Including their own.

This is a problem that must be seen and understood. If we judge first, we lose our ability to understand.

What crisis do we find ourselves in today, where we do not revere… anything?

The only thing that seems to hold reverence is CURRENCY — fake money, and “states” of control, power and influence.

This is Ahrimanic to the core. It is inhumane.

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Back to the personal medical gripe prose:

We surely won’t talk about or even think about what caused this, or how to eradicate it at its root, God forbid you bring that up.

You’ll be eye-rolled or laughed out of the room.

What do you know about your own body, mind and soul, PEASANT?

I wear a white coat and you’re wasting my time. You don’t know anything, you don’t have a degree. Fuck your intuition and your soul and the body’s innate intelligence, what credentials can it produce?

Nothing? Then it must not exist. Get out.

Fuck you and your white coat motherfucker.

Fuck you for judging me for my demographic data. Talk to me like I am human and like you are not a machine yourself.

Fuck you for giving me flack because you don’t like dealing with the insurance company I have.

And fuck you for assuming because I have a certain insurance company that I don’t have the ability to pay out of pocket to save my own life.

I don’t tell you how much $ I make because I’m aware of the tendency in humans to parasite.

I also couldn’t help but notice the commentary you made about my gender, marital status, and how “independent” I was, with that flare of resentment and mockery in your voice.

A judgment toward women who work full-time and aren’t financially dependent on a man.

Have you seen men lately?

The only one I was going to marry is dead, I feel I have to say that as justification for why I am not married, mind your fucking business.

See where we get into problems when we judge?

How did an office visit turn into 2100 questions of NON medical related shit? Who do you think you are? How are YOU a doctor?

For all that schooling, you sure know nothing.

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I got half the nerve.

I got half the nerve to go into medicine myself.

I have been acutely aware of the flawed nature of this field since a young age.

I come from a medical family, whatever the fuck that means, except that I have physicians in my family.

Let it be known I am not in any way insulting the physicians in my family. They are NOT bad people. There are still good people in this “system”.

There are RNs here on Substack (and Physicians) who write extensively on this topic.

I also have these conversations on a regular basis for my work as a healthcare recruiter.

The things they have to go through are heartbreaking. They do not enter into this field with the sole goal of making money, they actually want to help.

They find themselves amidst a nightmare when the “bottom line” of the hospitals or facilities they work for are the ones standing in their way from caring for patients.

Their employers make it known that if they don’t do it, “there’s 100 other people waiting to take your job who will do it in a second.”

Suddenly, they went from pursuing a dream, to being in survival mode from that dream, towing a line they never knew existed.

Now what?

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“MD Does not stand for Medical Deity, y’all.”

I laughed when I heard the Billy Bond throw that line out in his recent podcast he did with John Otto, which was of course, removed from YouTube immediately. He happens to have information on how to (allegedly) treat cancer.

I cannot state this as fact because I don’t have cancer, so I can’t tell you for myself if it works or not. However I am apt to try his therapeutic methods for my own health issues.

I have a host of health issues I do not feel like disclosing, but I believe them to be results of a profoundly dis-harmonious society.

We live in willful ignorance of the rhythms of Nature and our bodies.

Couple that with poisoned food, water, air, petrol pharmaceuticals, being cooked constantly by way of microwave radiations (satellites, cell phones, WiFi, 5G, bluetooth), dirty electricity emitting dis-harmonious frequencies that disturb our magnetic fields and cellular assemblies, EMFs, you get me?

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I got half the nerve.

Why don’t I?

I guess if I feel I get a real kick to the chest from God to take the leap then I will.

I don’t because I already signed up to make music and be a poet and be a traveling gypsy to share a message that brings people together.

Yes, I make music, yes, i share poetry, yes, I have traveled all abouts, and have shared these works and been witness to the glorious works of my fellows, more times than I can count.

However, I’m in a lot of pain and having a lot of health issues.

This has been something that has kept me in a restrictive state of body and ability a lot, more than I’ve discussed.

I do not like discussing vulnerabilities, especially physical ones.

I understand the nature of the modern human. Predatory, parasitic.

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I got half the nerve, y’all.

When Billy said MD does not stand for medical deity, I needed to hear it.

I had a breakdown that day (and night) of being gaslit while in so much pain, it inspired thoughts suicidal.

It’s been going on for more than a decade.

I can’t get any doctor to take it seriously or do anything that helps, but they’ll happily take my money, as I pay out of pocket for all of this shit.

Most places will not take my insurance.

Then they want to send me “up river” to a “pain management specialist”.

The first time I heard that, I was 25 years old. HELL NO. I knew what that meant.

It means they put you on pain meds. Opiates. No.

At the age of 25, I was 5 years clean, and as an ex-heroin, ex-oxycontin addict, there is no way I am going to “resign myself” to taking opiates as a solution for literally anything.

I’ve had surgeries in sobriety where I didn’t take any pain meds, and they cut my body open for that. There’s no way I’m taking them for this. I will never touch them again.

So, I began to drift. Try to find my own way.

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What to do?

I had a breakdown because I am treated like an inmate when I enter a medical facility.

Treated like a peasant who couldn’t POSSIBLY know ANYTHING about my own body, mind or reality.

How dare I come in there asking questions or being in someone’s sight, keep your head down and walk in the straight line when called!

Ah, yes, the ratchet at the front desk who should have been a C.O.

Allow the white coat deity to GRACE ME with ten minutes where I’m low-key (or high-key) berated because this motherfucker is irritated his patient count is too high?

Perhaps he is overwhelmed?

Welcome to the club, at least you can sit down and stand up without feeling an extreme amount of pain that you’d literally disrobe your body from yourself if you could.

You signed up for this, are you surprised you have to do your job?

They do not care unless symptoms are so severe that the billing codes (and revenue generated therein via RVUs) will justify spending the time - otherwise, in their eyes, you are wasting theirs.

Come back when you’re completely fucked. We’re not in the business of preventing illness, we’re in the business of dulling and masking the symptoms.

It’s like they are desensitized; the hammer only strikes after the final canary has died.

There are concerning things in these already present symptoms, in this MRI, in this X Ray, in this blood work. None of which are NORMAL in a healthy human.

Yet, by todays standards, they don’t consider it significant, because sickness IS normal, the sclerotic breakdown of the body while still in your youth IS normal — at least in the United States of Amnesia — therefore, they will not treat it.

Then there’s the situations where it doesn’t make sense to them:

Why would you show these signs, symptoms and results, but not fit into THIS box that people usually do? Ah, I guess your body, your symptoms, and these findings must be wrong, since I can’t find an easy box to put you in.

NEXT!

Say less.

God forbid you do something scientific, like figure it the fuck out.

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I got half the nerve, y’all.

I got half the nerve to make sure this stops.

I got half the nerve to carry out a mission where we TREAT PRIMARY CAUSES AND CONDITIONS instead of playing whack-a-mole with SYMPTOMS.

I got half the nerve to help people set themselves free.

I am not a deity, but if I can learn to heal me, then maybe I can point you in the direction of learning how to heal yourself.

I don’t know. Until I do that for myself, I have no room to talk.

I’m going to embark on my own journey now. Fuck the allopathic Rockefeller-owned, operated and indoctrinated medical INDUSTRY.

Tell me why, with one body, I need to cat-heard ten different providers with separate board certifications who refuse to communicate, just to get them to pay attention to something before it irreversibly breaks?

Do you know how hard it is to do that job for all of you, while in this much pain?

At some point I explode in tears and resign myself to the bedroom floor and stare off into oblivion.

I have been fighting this battle for over a decade and it is exhausting.

The pain alone is exhausting.

Fighting your way through red tape that should never be there is a gaslighting kaleidoscope of a journey I wouldn’t wish upon anybody.

No shade to the decent clinicians and providers within the industry who actually care about people, who don’t treat them like a nuisance for existing, who don’t treat them like mechanical parts on a conveyor belt — please don’t give up.

Easy for me to say though, right?

I can’t imagine what it’d be like to be in the medical industry and actually care about human beings.

It seems it’d be damn near impossible, given it’s extreme anti-human and profit-driven nature, packed with lethal misinformation we call “consultation”.

I’ll report findings as I learn how to heal my own conditions and free myself from chronic pain. I’ll report findings as I learn how to heal the whole deal - mind, body, spirit, yada yada.

I got half the nerve to fuck around and practice some shit like Ayurvedic or Functional Medicine.

But.. I did choose music. Or rather, it seems to have chosen me. Same with poetry. Same with writing.

And if I cannot heal my current condition, if I cannot heal my current pain, neither music nor service nor doing anything of any use in this world will be possible.

Good luck even working at McDonalds when the pain flareups get so bad you can hardly walk.

So, I must go now and do the things. Much love.

Here’s the podcast that inspired this when Billy Bond dropped one of his classic one-liners, amidst a very brilliant conversation.

Conversation with Billy Bond from Perma Pastures Farm (Podcast name is the Permaculture P.I.M.P.cast) with Jonathan Otto: Cancer-Proof Your Life!

Just so y’all know, P.I.M.P. stands for Permaculture Is My Passion.

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