Just my humble opinion, I believe U are supposed to put this to music, a slow beautiful melody- so that it can help many more~ no explanation b4 or after just the song to soothe the broken heart.💜💜👑👑☯️☯️
Boom. And just like that, you decided which song is going next on the album during the session next week. I was struggling with deciding which direction to go out of everything - thank you. 🙏 I will do exactly that. I trust the intuition of your ❤️ and soul.
This is synchronicity and serendipity again…yesterday, Jai Dev, in his teaching, was saying that although at both ends of the scale, grief is love. You grieve because you love.
I wrote about it some time ago, Grief is love with no place to go.
Your poem resonates with me and with what I wrote…we are so connected.
Yes. I was super blown away by some of the things Jai was saying bc they’re things I was saying / thinking / writing right before. This proves the interconnectedness of all - we’re all picking up on the same stuff. Love you.
thank you for reading and giving your feedback. i am really grateful for the both of you. and thank you for also reaching out to me during that time when he passed. i will never forget that.
omg 😭 that makes two. Reina suggested I turn this into a song, I told her I'd put it as the next song I do on the album, and that session is in less than five days. I didn't know which one to pick next.. was looking for clarity. Didn't expect it to be this. Thank you for not only reading, but for confirming the next step. This I will do. ❤️
omfg. dude you know what is SO fucking weird about you saying that!? That is the first time I’ve released that picture. It was literally taken in 2021. I was gonna wait until I was able to make songs about Dylan (fiance who died in 2021 — oh shit so nvm that pic was from 2022. fuck i get those years so blurry in my head) so i was waiting for that time. but the time never came. i never had it “in me” to be able to make the songs addressing both the grief, and also the story we had. so the music never came out and no one ever really saw that picture until now. holy shit. and now it seems like its all coming together. and you saw it. because i could not see. i just followed instinct and posted “some stuff on my phone.” DUDE. fucking thank you. holy shit. im gonna let the pieces of my mind that just got blown slowly settle back into my skull.
Today is my first Father's Day without my papi, he left this earth at the beginning of this year. I helped care for him while he was under hospice care, it was brutal to watch a man who loved Jesus, his family and his guns become frail. You published this post for me, because it's telling me what I needed to accept. Thank you, bella😘
I started crying once I read this - legitimately. It’s such a strange thing, the depth of the loss fused in with the depth of the love, both equal. I will keep you in my prayers today/tomorrow. Thank you for leaving this comment. 🙏
Definitely agree with Reina that this should go on the album. I know how much Corey's passing affected you. It was a big part of your life this year. Those lyrics are REAL dude. Honestly, I don't know how they CAN'T go on the album.
thank you so much for saying this. it’s definitely set in stone, monday that song will go next. today we film a spoke word video. also my goal is to carve the time to listen/watch your podcast. i saw it come out last night and i am really fkng proud of you dude.
I fully relate to this. I've also had songs that i dont remember writing (or even recording) and when it comes to prose or poetry, thousands of pages of *question mark* when it comes to memory recall. Downloads indeed. I think we are instruments and channels for this flow. Then of course... uhg... the projects that we labor over for the better part of a YEAR just to get a few minutes recorded. I am with u there.
Just my humble opinion, I believe U are supposed to put this to music, a slow beautiful melody- so that it can help many more~ no explanation b4 or after just the song to soothe the broken heart.💜💜👑👑☯️☯️
Boom. And just like that, you decided which song is going next on the album during the session next week. I was struggling with deciding which direction to go out of everything - thank you. 🙏 I will do exactly that. I trust the intuition of your ❤️ and soul.
Those fuckin leaky face holes🥲🥲 U pushed that one thru Babes, Love U🥰🥰👑👑💜💜
love you tooooo
This is synchronicity and serendipity again…yesterday, Jai Dev, in his teaching, was saying that although at both ends of the scale, grief is love. You grieve because you love.
I wrote about it some time ago, Grief is love with no place to go.
Your poem resonates with me and with what I wrote…we are so connected.
Thank you for sharing this 💙🙏💫
Yes. I was super blown away by some of the things Jai was saying bc they’re things I was saying / thinking / writing right before. This proves the interconnectedness of all - we’re all picking up on the same stuff. Love you.
Love you, too!
Wow 👀
This Made Me feel a sense of Déjà Vu @Tesstamona
I wrote this January 2nd 2020 about My cousin.
New Years Resolutions ©️
On New Years Day I called my my father when I got outta bed
Found out the awesome news that my cousin shot himself & that he is dead
his girl used the kids as weapons
& got all in his head
the world is filled with this type of shit
& never empty of dread
but this is just the type of heavy shit that rolls around in my head
I’m trying to free myself from a life always seeing in red
have so much family I can’t even list all of the bloodshed
But I can’t let it go on no more with it left being unsaid...
To All My Family & Friends
I LOVE YOU
More than an alchemist loves to transmute some gold from some lead
R.I.P. Cuzzo
🙏🏽
wow. thank you so much for sharing this. I'm gonna send you a private message on here.
But like Reina said, that's just my humble opinion. Regardless, they are beautiful and true, just like you. Thanks for sharing.
thank you for reading and giving your feedback. i am really grateful for the both of you. and thank you for also reaching out to me during that time when he passed. i will never forget that.
Incredibly profound. If this ever becomes a song there won’t be a dry eye in the house.
omg 😭 that makes two. Reina suggested I turn this into a song, I told her I'd put it as the next song I do on the album, and that session is in less than five days. I didn't know which one to pick next.. was looking for clarity. Didn't expect it to be this. Thank you for not only reading, but for confirming the next step. This I will do. ❤️
& that pic should be the cover art for the single- trust you’re going to release it as a single later
omfg. dude you know what is SO fucking weird about you saying that!? That is the first time I’ve released that picture. It was literally taken in 2021. I was gonna wait until I was able to make songs about Dylan (fiance who died in 2021 — oh shit so nvm that pic was from 2022. fuck i get those years so blurry in my head) so i was waiting for that time. but the time never came. i never had it “in me” to be able to make the songs addressing both the grief, and also the story we had. so the music never came out and no one ever really saw that picture until now. holy shit. and now it seems like its all coming together. and you saw it. because i could not see. i just followed instinct and posted “some stuff on my phone.” DUDE. fucking thank you. holy shit. im gonna let the pieces of my mind that just got blown slowly settle back into my skull.
I just got "that rush" I fuckin Love synchronicities & that electric charge that goes with them🥰🥰🔥🔥
That's why U were told to post it😉😉
Today is my first Father's Day without my papi, he left this earth at the beginning of this year. I helped care for him while he was under hospice care, it was brutal to watch a man who loved Jesus, his family and his guns become frail. You published this post for me, because it's telling me what I needed to accept. Thank you, bella😘
I started crying once I read this - legitimately. It’s such a strange thing, the depth of the loss fused in with the depth of the love, both equal. I will keep you in my prayers today/tomorrow. Thank you for leaving this comment. 🙏
Definitely agree with Reina that this should go on the album. I know how much Corey's passing affected you. It was a big part of your life this year. Those lyrics are REAL dude. Honestly, I don't know how they CAN'T go on the album.
thank you so much for saying this. it’s definitely set in stone, monday that song will go next. today we film a spoke word video. also my goal is to carve the time to listen/watch your podcast. i saw it come out last night and i am really fkng proud of you dude.
Thank you for saying that. Hey, good luck today in the spoken word video shoot. That’s dope!!
Just so beautifully poignant. Wow. Spine shivers. ✨
🙏❤️🙏
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I have plenty of Rhymes that I do t remember writing.
I have others that I have painstakingly labored over for sometimes months.
Then there are those Rhymes that seem to be a download & seem not to be My own message.
So when You mentioned not remembering writing this… that was just something else You said that seemed familiar.
I fully relate to this. I've also had songs that i dont remember writing (or even recording) and when it comes to prose or poetry, thousands of pages of *question mark* when it comes to memory recall. Downloads indeed. I think we are instruments and channels for this flow. Then of course... uhg... the projects that we labor over for the better part of a YEAR just to get a few minutes recorded. I am with u there.