JAB, CROSS, HOOK, BLACKOUT: The final yogic sessions of the eclipse retreat
I suppose I’d better tell the rest of this, being that another eclipse is less than 48 hours away… or that which I can remember at least…
If you’ve been with me on this journey, you’ve read the Jupiter session, the Saturn session, the Venus session, the Mars session, and the Mercury session. Now, we arrive at the day of the solar eclipse (nearly two weekends ago) from the Kundalini Yoga eclipse immersion… but let me back you up to the night before:
I laid down to sleep and…. holy shit.
I know enough about energy transformation and upgrades to have not completely freaked the fuck out when this happened, but..
I laid down and experienced my entire body as separating spinning atoms at rapid speeds. It felt like my entire being was composed of light-speed circular energy that was vibrating intensely, and slowly being pulled apart, and somehow, some current of energy was also moving through it.
I’ve had to say this a lot since writing about this kundalini immersion, but I’ll say it again: I have been sober nearly 14 years and was on ZERO intoxicants through any of this. This is a result of… at this point like 18 hours of kundalini yoga within two or three days?
I told a friend about it. She referred to it as spiritual surgery. Sounds about right. Whatever it was, I knew it was a result of what I was doing, and I just let it do what it did.
I can’t tell you what that was, but I can tell you that my perspective, mentality, and the way I operate and execute on my actions in life since this retreat have been massively elevated.
So thats how I entered the day of the eclipse.
The morning? I approached the moon session, and the truth is….
I don’t remember ANY OF IT. At all. Total blackout.
Kundalini yoga does things that similar to EMDR I have noticed, in the sense that it gets both hemispheres of the brain (along with everything else in your system) completely activated and ON.
Sometimes, and especially when we are not used to this, it can be A LOT for us to handle. A common side effect for those of us with … well this is my interpretation, but TRAUMA, we can disassociate.
That doesn’t mean the work doesn’t get done, or the healing doesn’t get in.
Sometimes the thinking mind needs to check out so other things can get to work.
Sometimes, it takes your memory with it.
I do remember the 30 minute break. I felt strong. I stood outside barefoot in the grass by the lake, and admired a giant bird who stood on overwatch for the entire nature preserve.
I admired him for his stillness.
He had no rushed energy to his nature. He allowed himself the dignity of rest.
To simply just be, in the sunlight, no bells and whistles needed. He was regal just because.
I thought to myself, “that bird is a straight gangster.” And soon went back into the retreat.
The session began. I don’t know what the fuck happened. But when I came out of it, I was throwed.
For anyone not familiar with that slang, it means I was fuckin sideways. Traumatic memories arose and old patterns of mental neurosis came back, obsessive thinking and repeating of disturbing thoughts from recent events. I had two hours, TWO HOURS, until the Sun Session began.
I almost became a problem for several people.
But the voice of reason came in and said, “do NOT do that. Do not be the cause of your own undoing. And especially do NOT do that during an eclipse. DO NOT.”
So, I didn’t. Impulse control is hard when you’re throwed. But then I looked at the clock. Four minutes until the sun session. I ran into it and waited.
It began.
Before I continue any further, I am going to share with you a transcription of what Jai Dev passed onto us. This is also where the paywall goes up, as I am honoring my word to reserving this content for paid subscribers and supporters of this publication. If you want to try a 7 day free trial, you can do so below and unlock it, along with several other posts, videos, and even behind the scenes music.
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Alright, shit’s about to get real. Let’s get into the transmissions and the teachings. Luckily, they were recorded. I was able to retrieve what I do not remember, and it shocked me:
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