This is part three. The sun has risen, and suddenly, a jolt runs through the body, and we remember something else:
Who We Are
Thanks for the reminder.
We had lingered in darkness long enough. Perhaps a series of experiences led us out of the fog and back toward ourselves, with a few quasi-psychedelic truth bombs to light the way.
Something happens to wake us up. It’s like cutting down a tree. One must swing the axe time and time again.. but it is often the final blow that we remember. HOWEVER…
That swing often comes in the form of EXPOSURE. An exposure that shatters all of our delusions… and we are finally free.
It is when the rose colored glasses come off and we see things as they are. We finally stop playing defense attorney for whatever person, behavior or circumstance we habitually justified — at no cost.. except to that of our dignity.
When people show you who they are, BELIEVE THEM.
Why do you think you get angry when someone abuses you?
It’s because deep down, you know you’re worth more than that, and something inside of you is revolting. Something inside you wants YOU to do better. To experience better. To live better. And it is trying to protect you.
🌟 Your spirit is trying to get your attention 🌟
“When you start loving yourself more often, you are telling the universe: I recognize the spiritual implications in every soul contract and encounter, and in the name of making my life less dramatic and traumatizing, I’m going to start loving myself, instead of relying on other people to keep giving me back my power, in such a difficult and heartbreaking way.”
-Matt Kahn
This is the truth we need to realize our worth. We stop punishing ourselves with making ourselves small. We stop punishing ourselves with all this hiding in the dark, thinking we need somebody to validate our existence type of bullshit.
We remember who the fuck we are.
We remember who we were before we met the person, place or thing who turned our lives upside-down.
We are filled with the instant, elastic rebound tenacity that a human slingshot would have, and we act.
I don’t know what acting on that looked like for you. For me, it looked like creating this:
“Oh, I used to think I was everyones favorite piece of trash
Oh, I used to have no boundaries,
and think if he put hands on me,.
he must love me —-
but then I started fighting back...”
That was a real reference to a time when I suffered from the delusion that “putting hands on me” AKA physical violence, equated to the person caring about me.
No shit. I equated possession and control with “love”. I was very confused.
It’s been many years, and a lot of ups and downs,
and i’ve come from wanting to die, and hating myself,
to recognizing that I, am part of the Divine,
here to experience itself, and I….
Shout out to Kris if you’re reading this. I love you. And I still use my Joelton Hardware guitar pick that you gave me that one day after doing some work at the homestead. People like you are what made Tennessee beautiful. This is a clip from performing the song at Joelton Hardware, a very special treasure of a venue and gathering place about 40 minutes north of Nashville. 💜
Blessings in Disguise
Some endings and disappointments, are blessings in disguise
The universe is re-routing us, so our purpose can materialize
So All I gotta say to you is God bless, thanks for the lesson,
Guess I needed it 😎
And sometimes… we collide to help one another remember, and I have never heard a better breakdown of it than Matt Kahn's video here on Soul Contracts, Twin Flames & Soulmates Redefined.
That video has helped me tremendously, and I’ve had to experience and “learn this lesson” SOOOO MANY FKNG TIMES dude. So don’t feel bad if you’re a repeat offender in the realm of “oh shit, I just got wrecked because I wasn’t paying attention and handed over my worth to a parasite” or however you want to explain it.
Truly, we could “hand over our worth” to literally anyone, could be the greatest person on earth, and we’d still get wrecked. We gotta stop doing that shit.
Why are you here?
Who are you?
What did it feel like when you felt "at your best” in life?
It’s okay if you don’t have any memories of it, or experience with that YET. The focal point of that sentence is YET.
Now, you get to find out.
And for those of us who once knew and forgot…
Now, we get to re-discover.
What’s so awesome about discovery, and re-discovery? Every time we return to the truth… it is even sweeter than the last time we found it.
That is within you. It is within all of us. It is alive in our cosmic ocean.
May we realize it now.
Dear friends, the winter solstice is next week. This is the true BIRTH OF LIGHT.
We will be going on a journey during this time.
A journey into sacred darkness, and an emergence into an indescribable new sunrise.
More on this as next week approaches, but file that somewhere in your memory bank, if you care to come along.
And hey, if you have your Spotify playlist and fw that vibe, you can add it here.
“May the one who judges be next in line to be loved”
I hope you got something out of this article series, out of the music, the poetry, the ON FIRE COMMENT SECTION holy shit you guys — look no further for hope in humanity than seeing how you all rallied around each other in the comments in this article:
and I also hope you enjoyed Matt Kahn’s video that I linked. Incase you missed it, I will link it again here. SO worth the listen.
Love you all, and if anyone has another topic they’d like me to cover, feel free to drop it in the comments. To the one who suggested this a few days ago… THANK YOU.
You helped us all get more free. You helped us all connect. Thank you for your bravery in honesty and showing up.
This series has been great. Thank you. When I was reading this last one, I froze at "When people show you who they are, BELIEVE THEM." I didn't continue reading for a minute or so. When I filed for divorce, this was the phrase that went over in my head. It helped me deal with the agony and be affirmative in my decision. I didn't want to believe that this person I had spent years with and thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, had a family with, was now a completely different person. Night and Day. That phrase got me through it. To see it here again, after so much time has passed. More confirmation! I'm on the other side of it now but for those that are still in grief and pain, this phrase is so true. Thanks for sharing your story and grief, using the word "We." I'm happy for you though Tesstamona. You realize your worth and strength, not tying it to someone else. Not putting up with someone abusing you (that made my blood boil). And if someone ever did, I find comfort in knowing two things:
1. You won't allow it
2. If they are forceful, I've seen you with that Glock. They better recognize.
Love the song. Soulful and empowering. Stay Fresh.
You are gifted 🙏