Stepping Into Worthiness, After Cycles of Abuse

I hope this message lifts you up and holds a mirror to the light you already have within you - in spite of a world that often tries convincing you otherwise.

Hey y’all.

“Thanks For The Reminder” is a jazzy hip hop song I made a while back that is just now releasing tomorrow. Why am I telling my substack crew about it?

It goes hand in hand with transformation and alchemy. It is a song about reclaiming the will to live, about stepping out of the unworthiness complex and all of its self-sabotaging behaviors: (I have a free gift for you at the end of this post btw)

“Oh, I used to have no boundaries and think if he put hands on me he must love me” — a real life example, once upon a time I actually did believe that anger, violence and possessiveness were indicators that a partner CARED about you, because I was used to either total dominating abusive behavior, or ice cold distance / neglect / abandonment - so I figured as a younger person, they must care if they want me around that bad, right? WRONG! But It takes what it takes to learn these lessons, and although dangerous and not a path I would suggest (learning the hard way,) the process, in hindsight, has been beautiful, because it has led me to who I am today:

“It’s been many years and a lot of ups and downs, and I’ve come from wanting to die, and hating myself, to recognizing that I, am part of the Divine, here to experience itself, and I….”

Another lyrical excerpt from the song up above.

I see a lot of people in abusive dynamics - with their own minds, with the government and various systems of oppression, with friends, with family, with romantic partners, with quasi-romantic “situationships”, the list goes on.

I am no stranger to this. I have dealt with these cycles all my life, and ironically, it was in being treated like I was “everyones favorite piece of trash” or just an afterthought altogether, that I finally realized my worth. Something in me said ENOUGH- and got angry, and I discovered that anger was because my spirit KNEW I was worth so much more than what I was allowing into my space, and it was rebelling against my lower mind, driven by a scarcity and unworthiness complex.

The story goes on for a while but I won’t take more of your time. I know I am not unique in this AT ALL, which is why I made this song, and why I’m sharing it with you.

Here’s the deal: you guys are the only ones who get this BTW lol.

The song drops tomorrow, so today is the last day to pre-save. Most of you on here are aware of my battles with censorship, but even if I didn’t have those, it’s still a challenge to get your song in the algorithms of platforms like Spotify, because hundreds of thousands of songs are uploaded to that platform alone every week. (Approximately 40,000 a day for Spotify, the leading streaming platform - in todays day, record label gatekeepers have been replaced with algorithms/robots) SO:

Pre-saving tells Spotify “hey, don’t bury this track, people want to hear it” so it’ll put it on peoples algorithms, or on their release radar. This is a message I want to reach people, so I’m asking for your help in doing so. None of us can do this alone.

It is completely free. If you could pre-save this song for Spotify at this link right here, and share it with anyone you think would benefit from a message of emancipating ourselves from abuse, that would be unbelievably helpful, and for that, I will give you the song a day early. That way you can at least listen to it in full and decide if you really fw it.

So friends, here you go. You can get the song at this link here, and this is ONLY available to people on this substack email list. I want to thank you for supporting me on this journey and also extra thanks to those of you who participate in conversations and publish your own thoughts.

Community is Immunity - let’s do this shit.

XO