Navigating Times of Crisis

We bought the ticket, so about this ride...

When life falls apart from different forms of loss or chaos, we have a choice. Stay in the ashes and waste away, or step into the void of the unknown.

It seems like a no brainer, but these are actually very hard choices to make, and that’s because we know what stepping into the void asks of us.

Is it freedom? Yes, but this freedom is very expensive. And I don’t mean monetarily expensive. You will pay with the death of the old self and old ways of doing life. You will also pay with grieving dreams and people you love. You will pay with the death of everything you thought was certain and everything you had your hopes up for. You may even be grieving parts of yourself.

Now about this ride…

This article is for people who are in the crisis stage of transition and transformation; for the people whose lives seem to have fallen apart in every area.

Death and rebirth:

We bought a ticket to this ride because remaining the same would mean wasting away senselessly, but now the ride has started and…

You have surrendered to what is, but are now fully alive and aware within the agony of dying a non-physical death, and there is nothing you can do to stop it.

It’s like getting on a rollercoaster and realizing you don’t like it when you’re about to be plummeted 300 feet straight down—you can’t stop the ride. THAT PART. 

This isn’t referencing a specific scenario, although I myself am in one. I don’t like to make things too personal because it might lessen peoples ability to identify with what I’m talking about, all I can tell you is it’s one of those situations where every aspect of life falls apart or becomes a question mark.

What I’m talking about facing and growing through is: Anything that you’ve identified as a cycle in your life that is toxic and you can’t seem to break, anything that is your Achilles Heel. That ONE THING that takes you down faster and harder than anything else. Facing off with that. 

It could be an addiction. It could be a lifestyle. It could be a self-defeating mentality that we find comforting so we keep doing it.

It could be a relationship. It could be your own war inside your head. It could be chronic confusion on what your purpose is, it could be staying in shitty jobs where you know every minute you’re not doing what you came here to do, but you have no idea what you came here to do, you just know this isn’t it. 

If you’re really in for it, it could be all of these things at once. 

It often is. 

When we get out of balance, everything in our life will follow suit. Our inner world will always create our outer world. No one likes hearing that (I don’t either) because it means we have more responsibility than we like to think we do regarding our quality of life. 

But it’s true. 

There comes a time, a reckoning in our lives.

We deal with this more than once. 

I heard a Yogi talking about a quote from either the Vedas or maybe a person, I cant remember, but the quote was, 

“If you are lucky, you will die 1000 deaths before you actually leave this human form.” 

Meaning dying 1000 spiritual/ego deaths (and thus being reborn 1001 times) before you actually physically die.  

It’s not about increasing one’s tolerance to pain to where we don’t feel it anymore (which isn’t possible anyway, and for good reason.) It’s about becoming a master of dancing with the flow of life and all it brings, which always includes pain. It is the touchstone of growth, and an indicator that change is needed.

The only things guaranteed in this life are change and death.

Pain will always be there and pain is a messenger, avoiding or numbing it is the worst thing we can do. We cannot outrun it, we cannot stop it. If we put it off, it becomes a thousand times stronger, and our day of reckoning, which will always come, a thousand times harder. 

Well now I’m in one of those places again, so why not write about the process in real time. 

The rest of this article will be discussing how to navigate extremely painful times without lapsing into old behaviors that land us back in a cycle we’ve been trying to get free from for most of our lives. 

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Alright, let’s get into the meat of this thing here: