If You're Breaking Down, Allow It.

Displays of "insanity" are often the healthiest reactions to the world you live in right now - your spirit is trying to get your attention.

This artificial world 

Constructed in the name of progress 

This is why specifics of word and intent are so important 

Did we know what we were “progressing” toward, did we know what we were “progressing” from? 

There are over 3000 fatal drug overdoses every week in the United States. 

Suicide rates are hard to find past the year 2021, but last I could find, it was something like one suicide every 11 minutes. 

The age group at highest risk for suicide was age 10-14, followed by mid twenties to mid thirties. 

Who are they?

One is the generation who reached childhood and early adolescence during global lockdowns and almost all human interactions being virtual, coupled with the poisonous onslaught of social media algorithms. 

When they became restless, depressed, lonely, anxious, suicidal, they were given pharmaceutical drugs with black box warnings that emphasize the danger of anyone under 18 consuming them, because a common side effect of these drugs is suicidal ideation. 

The other age group? 

Millennials and early Gen Z.

The generation who grew up when the same technology was first made available for public consumption. 

They grew up with these hypnosis machines, coupled with the American lie, sold to the boomer generation, those they were born from, as the American dream. 

Then they hit the age where said dream is supposed to come true if you “do all the right things” and work hard- and then the entire planet shut down. 

Careers, bank accounts, families, communities, homes, plans, jobs, many of us experienced losing all of it almost overnight, due to the controlled demolition of one societal spell to usher in another. We’ll call that the upgraded dystopia.  

When those of us who saw it spoke out, we were isolated and barred from society. 

To the sleeping ones determined to stay that way, they had an equally hard time - imagine clinging to a dream that you’ve already awoken from, and wondering why things aren’t adding up, doing anything imaginable to get back to the dream you still believe is real. 

None of it was ever real. 

That which we “progressed” from was real. 

It was only a few generations ago that many of our ancestors knew how to live in harmony with this planet. They knew how to grow food, build homes, treat illnesses, address problems in the family or community without calling the “authorities” in to “help” — those things didn’t exist because they aren’t necessary… in a CONNECTED society. 

Customs and traditions were celebrated and treated with reverence, not used as mind control dog whistles in mass media and politics. The old way creates commonality and connection, this “progressed” way creates division and weakness — which turned us from sovereign beings to castrated prey. 

Progress could mean an improvement in quality of life, depending on what kind of life you want to live. Progress or progressive is also used in the same sentence to describe worsening cancer, or one of the definitions of alcoholism/addiction: “a progressive and fatal disease” - I can personally attest to that being true, speaking from experience. The disease part not so much, unless used in the context of dis-ease, not disease like the plague, although it certainly feels like it to the sufferer and those around them. 

What was the goal of this rage against the natural world / rapture toward the machine? 

What have we gained and lost in living in a society that is pretty much still an augmented reality without the goggles? 

Synthetic endocrine disrupters & poisons in food, water, soil, air, fabrics, medicines, everything. 

A distrusting, drugged out, stressed out, disconnected society, constantly triggered by the onslaught of fear/rage porn in the form of every media imaginable, and of all the drugs, that is the one most widely consumed. With smartphones alone, the average American checks their phone 58x a day. Gen Z allegedly spends an average of 9 hours a day on their phone. Average American? 5 hours a day. But let me be honest here: 

In the last few years (2020 and onward) I think those numbers are extremely low. 

I see with my own eyes, people of all ages, on their phone constantly. Even while working. 

And this data is only for phones. How much time are we in silence? 

What about people who watch TV, or listen to the news or podcasts constantly? 

Is there always a noise or someone else’s voice, opinion and life as the soundtrack of ours? 

For many of us, that answer is yes. 

It is no wonder, that the ones who are the most “linked in” to this digital world, are the most lost. 

And that’s only the input we receive. 

We live in a world where we work for breadcrumb wages with no real connection to each other or even the work we’re doing, most people can’t afford to be paid with a bi-weekly check because cost of living is so high, which is why many businesses offer weekly or partial same day pay now, and is also why there are worker shortages everywhere. 

Don’t get me started on the completely illegal federal income tax that comes in to take a third of your earnings that already aren’t aligned with the cost of living. 

Or how none of the money is even real- merely a social construct that would implode immediately if people understood fractional reserve banking. 

To the ones who feel like they can’t do this anymore - that is probably the most sane and healthy reaction you can have - and by no coincidence, we have all been conditioned to judge it the most harshly. 

What’s wrong with you, you can’t just get in line like everyone else? 

No, because this entire charade is nonsense that goes nowhere and means nothing. We kill ourselves for jobs to support families we don’t have the time or energy to connect with at the end of the day - then we lash out at them in our exhaustion, as if it’s their fault. So the algorithms and talking heads will raise your kids while keeping you subdued with various means so you don’t catch on and drop out. 

This is the first time in my life I’ve seen a multiple income household, all holding full time jobs, still struggle to afford basic needs: housing costs, food, transportation and medical expenses. 

This is not progress, it’s insanity. 

Your spirit often realizes it before your mind does. 

That’s why you burn out so easily. That’s why you snap. That’s why you keep saying fuck this, I’m out. 

Yet due to our conditioning to rely on the formula or else, this gap of sanity, often resembling a mental breakdown, doesn’t last long enough. 

Why? 

We run back to another losing game. We don’t stay broken open when we break down. 

When you’re broken open, the Divine Intelligence in and around you can get to your consciousness much easier.

Burdened by constant noise, demands, distractions and overwhelm? Add a veil of pharmaceutical coping mechanisms prescribed by your trusted medical establishment? Good luck noticing even if God pulled up with a megaphone. 

Stay open if you’re broken. 

Turn off the volume of this progressed world. 

Delete social media apps from your phone and ideally, put it down for a minute. 

I’ll join you. We’ll talk later.