Have You Ever Wondered Why?

On Grief, and Discovering the Medicine in the Shadow:

Have you ever wondered why?

There’s a song I have called “Grieve, My Love” (unreleased) where one of my lyrics says:

“Asking why is a lethal question, like I speak in an ancient curse”

Asking “WHY” when we lose the ones we love, or are faced with betrayals and losses beyond our previous comprehension, can feel like a fatalist move at best.

However, this is because the question was posed from the wrong angle, in my opinion.

There’s another “why” that leads to richness, that leads to forgiveness, that leads to freedom, as opposed to the opposite - despair and confusion.

I worked that out in real time in this podcast. It is for patrons only, due to its personal, raw and unedited nature.

For anyone on a journey with grief, hearts breaking OPEN, Love, honoring the departed and wondering why it is that we are still ALIVE, this episode may help you.

This podcast episode is a substack exclusive and patron-only episode, meaning it is not public. For everyone who is a free subscriber, thank you for being here and I’ll catch you on the next one.

To the patrons, the episode can be found below, and thank you so much for supporting my work here.

*Note: if you fall into the above category and cannot afford a subscription right now, email me and I will comp you, no questions asked.

If you want free episodes, you can check out the last three podcasts I did in the last month, and if you haven’t already, please support the music video and song of Algorithm Ghetto, as it is fully restricted in all search engines still (yes, even a brave browser) thank you and love you.

EDIT

I’m including a screen recording of what it looks like to search the music video in a Brave browser with it’s safe search mode set to OFF so I don’t have to explain this again.

Someone tried putting it in DuckDuckGo, which I didn’t try because it has ties to Microsoft. The video surprisingly did show up, but the data did not display correctly. If you are familiar with search engines either not showing things or showing them incorrectly and can explain this, please send me a message.

Brave browser screen recording:

DuckDuckGo search engine showing it, but displaying incorrectly - showing 2.1k views when a direct link to video shows 3.7k views - which in my first assumption would mean the data is being sourced not in real time, since it had 2k views in the first week and it’s been out for 2 weeks:

Thank you, showing the screen recordings and screen shots helps clear up any confusion there might be in making statements around the machine not showing anything at all, or displaying it incorrectly, since people are still apt to believe the machine over people.

Algorithm Ghetto: Music Video on YouTube, and Audio on Spotify

Algorithm Ghetto Spoken Word Poetry Edition Video

Recent Podcasts:

Tesstamona: Resisting the Algorithm Ghetto & Our Technetronic Future

Through the Inner Tyrant with Tesstamona

Freedom: From Addiction to Recovery, From Indoctrination to Sovereignty - With Radha Geet

A recent poem I wrote on grief:

If I Screamed, I Would Split The Earth In Half

Alright, for the patrons of this publications, you may continue on to listen to this.

Thank you to

Jacqueline Rendell

and

Donn Harper Jr.

for your works, as they greatly inspired me to record the following audio and do this work in real time. I was feeling very stuck until I came across Jacqueline’s post, and Donn’s commentary.

Let us begin: