As Summer Solstice Approaches, You May Want to Know This:
Ancient wisdom teachings offered for free on this day (sign-up link inside) and a personal testimony of what happens when you mix intention with the rhythms of Nature:
Give forth thy light to all without doubt; the clouds and shadows are no matter for thee.
-Book of Thoth
Summer Solstice is approaching. June 19th this workshop will be held:
You can sign up for free here.
This is a free workshop (done via Zoom) by Remington Donovan. Within this summer solstice workshop will be ancient teachings surrounding the significance of this date, ancient numerology, tarot, gematria, mystical qabalah, meditations and more.
I will share something with you off rip about it:
I did this last year, and remember it extremely well. The reason I remember it is because it was during my first attempt at getting away from the abusive relationship I was in (and am now out of).
I bounced out of Nashville and went to a family friends house in North Carolina for five days. This workshop took place then.
Another significant experience happened that week. I had an experience with the Christ Spirit that I’ve never disclosed publicly - and perhaps at a later time I’ll tell that story, but it was a significant turning point that I’m faced again with now (in a good way).
However, let me give a word of caution:
There is a Magickal teaching that whatever you are doing on that day (the day of the Summer Solstice), you will be doing that for the rest of the year.
This does NOT mean that if you work a job you don’t like and have to go to work, that you’ll be stuck at that job and miserable for the whole next year.
If you have mundane or somewhat unlikeable circumstances on that day, the way to transform that for the year ahead is how you are perceiving things in your mind.
If you choose to see Love / God in everything, if you remain in a state of prayerfulness and gratitude, if you find reasons to count blessings and to smile and to laugh, guess what, you just blessed your entire year.
It doesn’t mean what you are mechanically doing, but be mindful of this energy on this day, because it will echo for a year, and I’ll share why below.
How do I know that’s true?
It happened on my end. It also happened for others who have shared their experiences, but I do not tell the stories of others unless they ask me to. I can only speak for myself:
That day was an even split between extreme emotional turbulence, grief, betrayal, absolute madness coming from my now ex, and the other half were breakthroughs on a spiritual level, as well as connecting with others, and a renewal of a commitment to myself.
Things got really dark and I had to ask for help. I actually allowed for the people I was staying with to take my guns away from me because of how low I was. I have never done that in my life.
They put them in a locked safe that I did not have the combination to until I was in better condition. That’s a big deal, that’s an act of surrender and trust, and it’s also a commitment to life, to not checking out of the planet because it hurts too much to be here. This can be a very hard thing to NOT do when the urge is extremely strong. I understand very well why people do it.
There were a lot of conversations with friends. Something I hadn’t been doing much of at the time. I had isolated myself, which made me very vulnerable to a relationship like the one I was in. And once I was in it, I became 10x more isolated. So breaking out of isolation was a theme, and that did continue throughout the year, thank God.
The commitment to myself and the commitment to God on a new level (that would come a few days later, and that’s not a story I’m going to tell right now) — that continued too.
If you have a day that feels like a shit show, all is not lost.
There is something I said to a friend in Nashville that night. She was there for me when I hit that dark bottom and she made the call to the people I was staying with to take my guns. I’m glad she did.
I said something to her at the end of the night. I woke up the next morning, and she quoted it and texted it to me, and she signed my name and the date.
It was as if she were solidifying a turning point of no longer allowing myself to be consumed by someone else’s fire - or any fire, for that matter.
As I’ve said here before, I would die FOR love, but I will not die FROM “love”.
This is what she sent, June 22nd, 2023 at 7:45 AM EST:
“I guess I chose myself, and I chose life.”
-Tess B. 6/21/23
That must have been my final comment that night after winding down from having been thrown way off the rails.
I remember saying something to that effect right before I went to bed. I had decided to stay on the planet. I had decided to chose myself, and at that moment I had seen the truth — that the situation I was in was NOT the move, and no matter the ramifications or the pain, I had to leave and choose myself.
I had to rebuild, no matter how terrifying or painful it was, or I knew I would lose my life.
I’m sure the story would be “cooler” if thats when I had actually left, but it was not.
The story is more REALISTIC because I’m telling the truth.
According to statistics, whoever the fuck is in charge of that, it takes women an average of 8 (EIGHT) times to leave, before they finally stay gone, in the context of abusive relationships.
Then there are the cases where some never make it out. Ever. They lose their lives. That is a reality.
I heard this song when I was down there. And it was eerie as hell. I used to listen to it all the time as a kid, but as an adult, especially with watching the video, I knew it was about DV.
The comments are chilling. The amount of people who relate to it… my God.
However, that was June 22nd when I woke up and received my own quote from this woman.
By September 22nd… I believe I was only days away from leaving TN and coming to Florida. Only days away from finally breaking the silence and asking for help in a way where I knew if I got totally honest about how bad things had gotten, I’d never be able to turn back. Not without breaking everyone’s heart and causing damage to them, and that was something I was not willing to do.
So I knew once I said something, that was it, there was no turning back.
I do not want to go through my text messages around that time to get you an exact date of when I got to Florida.
Just kidding I checked my calendar instead and was able to see shit from that.
I think I left for Florida September 12th or 13th… I think I got here on a Thursday… maybe Friday? So I must have gotten here the 14th or 15th. Damn. I thought I hadn’t gotten to Florida until final days of September/early October.
Looks like it was a bit sooner.
So the good news?
From the day I sent that message, the day of that Solstice, it would be less than 90 days before I would TRULY choose life, before I would TRULY choose myself, and embark on an evac mission like a bat out of hell (literally) and start a new life.
And the life that came to me once I got here… it was like the floodgates of blessings opened.
The rate at which things upgraded and changed so quickly felt like all of ones blessings had been blocked by (self-imposed) levies, and the blessings were anxious to break those levies and get to you with a sense of urgency like “FINALLY! WE HAVE BEEN WAITING!”
Thats what it’s like to jump into the abyss, when the “non-abyss” is a lethal hellscape. That’s what it is.
All of that was put in motion right around that time, and especially surrounding that day.
I share this story because, your story might not need to be as dramatic as that, but perhaps it is. There are a lot of people on this platform, I do not know who reads what, I know a few hundred people read each article because Substack shows that on the dashboard when you log in, but I don’t know who.
And even if I did, I don’t know most of you personally, only a handful.
So whatever it is you want to set in motion, you will, and this is a powerful day for that.
If you are unconscious and go through the day like a wrecking ball, you can expect a continuation of that to varying degrees.
Or one could use it as a platform for elevation, to guide their ship with intention, and allow the Divine to work out the rest of the details. This is simply working with the rhythms and harmony of Nature.
So, there’s my testimony on the fact that yes, this day and time period is significant. Highly potent. And it feels nice to reflect back on that… because even though I may have dealt with some treachery, deceit and fuckshit since then from other sources, one situation quite recently, it damn sure hasn’t had me throwed like that.
It hasn’t destroyed me to where I can’t look in the mirror. It didn’t destroy me at all actually. The opposite. It made me stronger. It pushed me further into where I’ve already had my sights set.
One year later I’m getting closer to God, to myself, to the people, creating an album and spoken word poetry, exploring life, building life, and doing the necessary work to continue healing so I can embody Love on a higher level, and with more consistency, so that it may be shared with others.
I’d say that’s a pretty good turnaround.
Looking forward to hearing about yours.
And if you join that day, I will be at work when it goes live, so I’ll have to catch the replay (which they send out to everyone afterwards, for those who work day jobs), but I will be there in spirit.
<3
In case you missed it at the top, the link to sign up for the free workshop is right here.
Blessed Be.
I signed up! I definitely want to learn what I can and use this magical time well. Thank you for sharing this opportunity and your story with us. Love you, Tess!
Agreed. Quite a turnaround. You’ve said to me a few times, thank you for choosing yourself thank you for choosing to live. Now I understand on an even deeper level. So glad you made it out friend.